Hello!

I can't believe how quickly the time has gone but just a year and a few short months ago I started my blog. A secret space that no one knew about where I could share whatever I fancied with this magical online community of friendly strangers.

It's quite remarkable just how warm and welcoming so many people you've never met can be, and just how quickly they will invite you into their lives and their hearts.


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I had no expectations when I started my blog, my only thoughts were that it might be a nice space to share medioca life events and mull over my own thoughts with the occasional input from others. I was in a phase of my life where everything seemed a bit fuzzy! I had a lot on my plate, little space to breathe or time to focus. My thoughts were all over the shop and I was in need of some direction. Blogging was my attempt as finding some (it's still a work in progress!).

Still, I never realised just how much it would impact on my life as a whole. The more I blogged the more I wanted to fill my life with rewarding and exciting experiences which in turn made me eager to share and the cycle continues!

In this short year (ahem, plus two months!), I've graduated, mourned the passing of loved ones, built wonderful new friendships, started new hobbies, ticked off dreams from the life bucket list, improved my eating habits with exciting cooking endeavours, travelled in Europe and spent two months in the States, got my first big girl job (and in the last 5 days my second!), and that's all just off the top of my head!

I truly believe blogging has played a huge part in all these achievements as through joining this community I've endeavoured to improve my quality of life and follow dreams I'd never imagined would come to realisation.

My following may only be small, my blog may be rather rough ready and less pleasing to the eye, oh and yes, my posts may not be the most thrilling read, but negativity aside, I'm so thankful for everything this blog has given me, and especially for all of the incredible support that readers and friends in the online community have provided throughout the year.

I want to say a big thank you to everyone who's read, commented or followed my blog on bloglovin'.

As I continue this journey to find myself, and make life a positive and enjoyable experience, I hope that with every day that passes, I can continue to contribute to this unique community and through the love and support it gives I will find more and more exciting adventures to share with you.

Thank you!
xx
Ahh...! The dreamy views flying across American skies

Hello!

To anybody else my last year might appear to be pretty uneventful, but for me it was the beginning of a life I look forward to.

In 2014 I made a real start to make my life the one I wanted it to be. I crossed some milestones I'd been working on for such a long time, and create many that I'm still working on everyday.

When i started this post I made a tidy little listed of all my achievements but when I read it through I couldn't bring myself to publish it! It sounded like I was gloating!

So no I won't do that but if I can I'm going to sum up the biggest events that brought me joy.

The most obvious was my graduation and getting first academic job. Academia has played such a big part in my life and to have reached the milestones I have, I'm so proud. I spent a lot of my life underachieving due to one reason or another, but I can honestly say that this was the first time I felt I'd truly committed myself to something and could truly feel proud of myself for the first time. It was a really emotional and magical moment for me.

Travel also played a big part in my year. Taking ten trips, visiting 5 countries, 5 states, and exploring 13 cities I've racked up more miles this year than I have in all my previous years combined. I've taken on the world solo, a dream I'd always had and never thought I'd achieved, and in all my travels I've learnt so much about the world, people and myself I feel blessed to have experienced so much and for so many incredible people to have allowed me into their homes and their lives.

I've also focused time on myself for a change. In recent years I've realised just how much there is out there I don't know, and how little time I've spent exploring it and myself. So in 2014 I made a conscious effort to grow. I've taken acting classes (something I never imagined myself doing), I've improve my skill and my confidence and a musician and a song writer, I've taken to knitting to the point of addiction. I don't remember the last time I left the house without a pair of knitting needles or crotchet hooks, I've crafted like nobodies business, tested myself in the kitchen, de-cluttered my house and my mind, and made great steps towards improving my mental and my physical health.

For me it's been a big year, and I'm very proud of how much I feel I achieved, now I can't wait to top it in 2015!!

However big or small you think your achievements might have been last year, don't weigh them up against other peoples ideals, look at your year and congratulate yourself.


Hello!

It's a health 8:37am and all of about 6 minutes ago, the view from my window looked a little something like this... lovely.

Then without fail the Welsh heavens opened and down poured the rain. Luckily for me I was quick enough to grab my camera but even without it I don't mind so much I just can't describe the feeling I get when it rains. It gives me a nervous energy as if something exciting is just round the corner.

For me, I hope that's true. With a new year we're always looking for new beginnings and I'm right on that bandwagon!

But before I get carried away with excitement for the new year I just want to touch on one glaringly obvious question.

Where have I been? If you're already a frequent visitor to this little Internet space you'll be wondering why the blog's been so empty for the last few months (but if you're new a very big Hello from me!).

Well truth be told, I was going through a patch of self doubt and lost the motivation to blog. So many people say the key to blogging success is good content, and frequent and consistent posting. So since my trip to the states which you can find snippets of here, and here, I've posted a couple of times with some sort of "I'm back" statement. I think I did it for two reasons, in a hopes that I would find the spark again and overcome the anxiety but primarily I just couldn't shake the overwhelming sense that I was letting you down. I had a responsibility and duty to post regardless of how I felt or if I even wanted to do it.

But I've come to realise, in all things you can try to push yourself to do things and ignore the way you feel, but you'll never get the satisfaction or comforting you're looking for. So in the end I decided I wasn't going to beat myself up over it, I was just going to take a break.

And I wanted to give the same advice to any of you out there who just aren't in the right place to be doing this, or anything else right now. There's so much pressure out there to stick to the rules that define "successful" blogging, but I don't know if I completely agree with them.

I understand the importance of an audience, and so I can see why for many people increasing your subscribers, followers or page views is probably your priority. But I had to take a step back and ask myself did that even matter to me?

I didn't start blogging because I needed a big following, or any following for that matter. I was looking for a space. A place where I could explore myself, my thoughts, my trials and tribulations, and through that process hopefully grow as a person. The relationships I've made along the way, and the people I've spoken with have been an extremely special bonus, but it's not the reason I started all this.

I'm still very proud of everything I've achieved on my blog, through my blog, or in my day-to-day life as a result of this journey, but I'm not going to berate myself anymore if now is just not the right time.

If you too feel like sometimes you just don't have the time, energy, or strength to do it right now? I hope you can draw from my experience and remind yourself "so it's OK...I'll do something else". Your quality of life will be the most important thing you ever work on, and whatever life brings you that should always be your focus.

I'm really feeling like life is getting quickly back on track and as such I hope to start blogging frequently again, but if I don't...I know now that it's OK.

xxx
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